帮忙把这封信翻译成英语 ,不要在线翻译的在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我我已经给过你很多次机会,每当我心灰意冷想要放弃

帮忙把这封信翻译成英语 ,不要在线翻译的在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我我已经给过你很多次机会,每当我心灰意冷想要放弃
帮忙把这封信翻译成英语 ,不要在线翻译的
在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我
我已经给过你很多次机会,每当我心灰意冷想要放弃的时候你总是会给我新的希望,但却又一次一次将我伤的更深更痛,痛到我无法呼吸!
多少个夜里我无法入眠,多少次我对着镜子无助的哭泣,我的痛苦无法诉说只能埋在心底,这种感觉简直让我崩溃
我不止一次来到你家楼下,但是我不知道自己做的是对是错,总是又默默离开,那一天我拨通了你的电话,你没有接电话,是啊,你忙需要休息,哪像我如此清闲没事到处乱跑,就是为了一个解释,一个安慰!
我不想逼你,也不想为难你,我退出过但你不肯放手,如此的心痛你让我如何是好,我不知道你在担心什么,想什么,难道你感觉我是喜欢你的金钱吗?所以你担心?不是的,你可知道在我面前从不缺少金钱的诱惑,好多东西只要我开口,我就可以得到,你给得了的我可以拥有,你给不了的我同样可以拥有.但我却义无反顾的选择了你.你仔细想一想,你为我做过什么,为我付出了什么,对我的爱又坚持了多少,而我对你却从未改变过,而你欠我的却用一条条伤口来补偿了我,我的痛和委屈时是否知道,我不喜欢这种感觉!
每次当拥抱着我告诉我你爱我的时候,我的感觉是那么甜蜜,同时又是那么的没有安全感,因为我不知道在你说这句话的同时有没有在想着别人,什么时你候会离开.
你给我美好的幻想,同时又将我的爱情埋葬.你占据了我生命的绝大部分,为了你我甚至背弃了对父母的承诺,我为你付出那么多的感情为何你要将我伤的如此疼痛,我真的好痛好痛,好累好累.
我的幸福是你给的在乎,但是现在我已经没有力气再挣扎了,对不起,这样的等待我受不起,请不要怪我如此没有耐心 ,如此小气,只是我无法与别人分享我的爱人.这一次我不是在闹情绪,也不是退出,而是心死,我的心已经死了,彻底的埋葬,我不会祝福你因为我没有那么大度,我也不会恨你,因为恨得越深痛得越狠,但是我会流着这道伤口因为只有痛了才不会忘记.
不要再来找我了,就当作我已经在这个世界上消失了,忘了我吧,
对不起,我爱你.

帮忙把这封信翻译成英语 ,不要在线翻译的在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我我已经给过你很多次机会,每当我心灰意冷想要放弃
In your mind there really care about me?And what is my bored playmate?To play with the puppet?Why do you want to hurt me again
I have given you a lot of chance,whenever I gave up when you want to give up,will always give me a new hope,but were once again a will I hurt even more of the pain,the pain that I can't breathe!
How many a night I couldn't sleep,and many,many times I to the mirror helpless cry,my pain cannot tell can only be buried in the bottom of my heart,and this feeling can let me crack
More than once I came to your house downstairs,but I don't know that they do is right or wrong,always and silently leave,that day I called you on the phone,and you didn't answer the phone,yeah,and you do need to have a rest,which be like me so at leisure nothing running around,is to an explanation,a comfort!
I don't want to push you,also don't want to embarrass you,I have but you will not let it go out,so the heartache of you let me what to do,I don't know what you are worried about what,think what,don't you feel I am to like you of money?So you worry?No,you can know in front of me never lack the lure of money,a lot of things as long as I opened my mouth,and I get,you give it I can have,you can't give me also can have.But I have the unshakeable chose you.You think about it,what you have done for me,for which I paid what,love for me and insist on how much,and I in you never changed,but you owe my but with a wound to compensate for me,my pain and grievance know it or not,I don't like that!
Every time when embrace me to tell me that you love me,I feel is so sweet,and at the same time,so insecure,because I don't know you say this words at the same time is in thinking about others,what you wait will leave.
You give me good fantasy,and at the same time,will my love for burial.You occupy most of my life,to you I even have turned to their parents a promise,and I pay for you so much sentiment why should you will I hurt so pain,I really hurts so much painful,very tired tired.
My happiness is your care,but now I have no strength to struggle,I'm sorry,I can't afford to wait for this by,please don't blame me so impatient and so mean,but I can't share my lover.This time I'm not in the disgruntled,also not quit,but heart died,my heart had died,completely buried,I won't wish you because I have no so big degree,I also can't hate you,because hate the deeper the pain the malicious,but I will flow to the word because only hurt the won't forget.
Don't come looking for me,just as I have in the world disappears,forget me,
I'm sorry,I love you.